(Not Quite) The Best Mom Ever

December 11, 2012

I returned home the other day, after nearly a week away, to this: It was a ‘Welcome Home’ party, organized by Emilia, the place of honor dedicated to me and adorned with messages of love, ‘because we missed you, Mommy.’ Which: OOF. My heart, my heart. Do I deserve this? I don’t deserve this. I’m [...]

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Somewhere Out There

November 29, 2012

This is the place that I am at. I can’t talk about what I am doing here, because it’s for a story in a magazine that is not the online kind of magazine that tells stories in real time, and because it’s not in real time I can’t tell my own version of the story [...]

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Tale As Old As Time

November 14, 2012

This girl. This girl turned seven today. I’m not sure how it is possible, but it is. Once she was one, and now she is seven, and I don’t know how we got from there to here or how we will get from here to the next there, and so on, and so forth. Every [...]

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For Every Storm, A Rainbow

November 13, 2012

When I was six years old, my family home caught fire. We escaped out an upstairs window, climbing onto the sundeck and then dropping what seemed an interminable distance to the ground below where people wrapped us in blankets. There were firemen there, and firetrucks, and lots of people standing, in their nightclothes, at the [...]

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Hurricane Sandy, In Numbers

November 7, 2012

The week of Hurricane Sandy, in numbers: Days that I was more or less trapped in an apartment with two small children: 7 Days that it took before I cracked open the bourbon: < 1 Days it took for me to finish the bourbon: > 1 Bags of Halloween candy consumed: 4 Bags of Halloween [...]

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On The Wing Of The Heavy Gales (A Storm, In Three Acts)

October 30, 2012

Yesterday, before the storm. Yesterday, on the brink of the storm. Today, watching the storm recede. (The Freedom Tower, finally visible again in the distance. Emilia: “Mommy, the clouds are letting us see the city again.” Yes. This.)

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On Murders And Mother-Love And The Bearable Weight Of Fear

October 27, 2012

I read the story of the nanny murders yesterday morning, at about 4:30am, just after I’d hopped in a town car to get to La Guardia for an early flight to Houston. I had, only minutes before, snuck into the dark of my childrens’ bedroom and kissed their foreheads and whispered goodbyes – softly, quietly, [...]

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A List Is A Wish The Left Side Of Your Brain Makes

October 22, 2012

So, this happened. TIME named this blog to its list of the 25 best blogs of 2012. Which, yes, I am totally bragging about, because I can. And because blogging for me has, this year, been a little bit harder than it has in previous years, and this feels all the sweeter for coming on [...]

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Why I Vote

October 19, 2012

I’m not voting in the upcoming presidential election. There’s a simple reason for that: I can’t. I’m Canadian. I’m what is sometimes referred to as a ‘foreign national.’ I live in the United States, and I work in the United States, and I’m raising my kids in the United States, but I am not a [...]

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The Mom Avoids The Picture

October 15, 2012

You’ll find almost no pictures of me on this site. There’s one on my About page, of course, and two or three of me speaking (although at least one of those is of my shoes), but otherwise, I’m nowhere, visually, to be found. This, even though I’ve posted thousands of photos here. Thousands. The thing [...]

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