Naissance

January 27, 2007

Yesterday was my blog birthday. This blog is one year old.

I know that most people like to call it an anniversary, or a blogiversary, but I really prefer to think of it as a sort of birth. One without the pain and the drugs and the torn-up hoo-hah, but a birthday nonetheless. One year ago yesterday, I created something. I took part of myself and made something of it and thrust it out into the world. I gave something birth. That thing was, is, this blog.

I’m not going to get all cheesy and call it my baby. It’s not my baby. This is my baby:


But it is possible to give birth to other things – things, works, states of being – things that are not babies, not even, colloquially, ‘our babies’ (such a mother, so literalonly a baby can be one’s ‘baby’), things that are nonetheless much beloved, much treasured, the products of much work.

This is what I said, one year ago. This was the first yell, the first red-cheeked holler that announced new life: welcome to the first day of the rest of my life.

My life.

I was referring, specifically, to the day of WonderBaby’s birth, the day that I became a mother, the day that my universe changed, the day that I changed, forever. But I might have been referring to the day at hand, the day of the birth of the blog. Because that day was also a day of transformation, a day of fundamental change. It was the day that I decided to tell my stories. It was the day that I became (again? for once and for all?) a writer, because it was the day that I leapt – blindly, happily – into my love of writing and stayed there. Swam there, splashed there, frolicked there. I’m still there – sometimes frolicking, sometimes dog-paddling, sometimes floating on my back, resting tired arms, but still – still – there. (Waterbabywriterbaby. Writerbaby? Uck. Writer, baby.)

What I gave birth to: a new (a rediscovered?) part of myself, a new (found?) identity. ‘Her Bad Mother’ (the name came late, as names often do) is me – me-the-mother, of course, but more fundamentally, me-the-writer.

I’m thinking about that a lot these days, about this transformation, this (re?)birth. How do I nurture this work, this thing, this me? I don’t quite know how to mother this creation. I’m learning as I go. I’m making mistakes, I think, but I don’t mind my errors. I’m learning. I don’t know how this work will turn out, but for the moment, that doesn’t matter. The joy is in the doing.

And, of course, always, the inspiration… there is joy, so much joy, in celebrating the inspiration, that which gave (who did give) this breath…

Then.

Now.

I don’t know where this goes. It doesn’t matter. It can only be good.

Cheers, and thanks for sharing this year with me.

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    { 67 comments }

    Deanna (Domestic Chicky) January 29, 2007 at 5:54 pm

    Congratulations HBM!

    You’ve added a unique voice to the blogging world…looking forward to much more!

    Granny January 29, 2007 at 6:17 pm

    Happy blog birthday (a little late, as usual).

    Thanks for including the links to your other posts. I hadn’t seen them.

    Mari January 29, 2007 at 7:10 pm

    Congratulations! What gorgeous photos!

    Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah January 29, 2007 at 8:40 pm

    Thanks for sharing it with us.

    Haley-O January 29, 2007 at 11:30 pm

    Happy Blogaversary (or whatever!) :) . And, our little monkeys are the greatest inspirations aren’t they — not just for the writing! :)

    KJ's muse January 30, 2007 at 12:07 am

    Happy Belated Blog Birthday!

    For you I willingly clean my hard drive when it says I’m running out of disk space. :)

    Keep up the great writing!

    Elizabeth January 30, 2007 at 12:34 am

    Happy Blog Birthday! I love this blog, you, WonderBaby, the whole package. Looking forward to many more great years of your writing!

    TB January 30, 2007 at 11:41 am

    Glad you’re here. Cheers!

    reddragonsangel January 30, 2007 at 12:56 pm

    happy 1yr blog anniversary, and just so you know- both your babies are amazing! keep up the great work!

    PunditMom January 30, 2007 at 1:21 pm

    Happy day! And thank you for all your wonderful prose!

    mothergoosemouse January 30, 2007 at 8:38 pm

    Happy birthday to Her Bad Mother! Thanks for allowing me to find you.

    creative-type dad January 31, 2007 at 2:27 pm

    Happy blogiversary!

    Amanda January 31, 2007 at 5:32 pm

    So, first, happy one year creation of something personal and wonderful. It’s a pretty grand thing to throw something out there and meet with an echo, an embrace or just a sense of satisfaction.Second,since we all know that each of us has the most beautiful, wonderful, talented and splendiferous child(ren) in the world, I just wanted to take a moment to say:
    Oh My! Your child is, gulp, truly magnificently beautiful. Really. Wow. Bravo, mama, bravo.

    urban-urchin February 1, 2007 at 1:40 am

    Awww HBM, look how much you’ve grown! happy blog birthday.
    That girl is so damn cute.

    Ruth Dynamite February 2, 2007 at 8:12 am

    Thank you for sharing the joy.

    nonlineargirl February 4, 2007 at 3:17 am

    Wow, talk about late… oh well, happy one year to you. (Late at night tipsy posting, plus late in days to say congratulations.)

    Catherine February 9, 2007 at 12:49 am

    We started blogging within 5 days of each other…and I think we have the same name. This is my third comment in five minutes, but only my first visit. I’m happy to meet you.

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