Why Does It Have to Require So Much Thought?

August 31, 2008


Hey there folks, it’s katie from motherbumper. For all those looking for Catherine, she is with her family, and spending all her time inside of a hospital environment. As if her situation could be any worse, technology is being completely uncooperative with her and she is unable to get access to the internet or send email. She can receive it but not send it. Like she needed this kind of crap.

Anyhow, she asked me to keep the Betchfest going and of course I said yes – I’d do anything to help out. If you haven’t heard about Betchfest you can read all the details over in The Basement.

The following post is part of the Betchfest exchange and Catherine offered this space so another person could find a safe space to rant and rave – something we all need to do every once and a while.


Why Does It Have to Require So Much Thought?

Notice to my Four Brothers: If you somehow find this, stop reading now and go away. Really. This post references a) my sex life, b) my lady parts and c) tampons. All of which you are happier pretending don’t exist.

Dear IUD.

Listen. We’ve tried to work it out. We’ve given the relationship a fair shake. But clearly it’s not meant to be. Try and change my mind all you want, I’m not having any of it. You had to know the 8 day period was a deal breaker.

I just wish you’d been more honest about the whole thing. You were all, Try me. I’m carefree. Install me and forget about me. I’m like magic! You won’t have to think about birth control ever again. Or at least for the next 10 years. I’m lovable. Made from natural materials. Drug free!

I’m a sucker, I admit it. It sounded too good to be true, but I totally fell for it anyway. Consider what I’d tried/considered before coming to you.

First. The pill. Which I would forget to take. Freudian? Maybe. Because I hate taking pills. And then I would get weirdly moody. It was a bad fit. I was glad when we were ready to have a baby .

Second. The shot. How did I ever try this? And more than once? What am I, a masochist? I used to have to pray and meditate before the doctor visit so that I would be calm enough to face the needle. Not only am I pill averse, I also get freaked out by shots. And. The same drugs the pill used were still messing with my emotions. Not good. Not good at all.

Third. Condoms. Aren’t condoms just back up for when you forget to take the pill?

Fourth. The pull out. Ummmm. Gross.

Fifth. Spermicide. Probably the closest thing to a good relationship with birth control that I’ve had. But it still required too much thinking ahead. And then there was the fact of the 24 hour seepage after use. Oh dear.

Sixth. The Rythym Method. But I thought the point was to prevent pregnancy.

Seventh. Abstinence. Not gonna happen. If it comes to that, I’ll take the 8-day period. And smile about it. (My husband is hot!)

Which finally brought me to you, IUD. And all my friends talked you up. And the doctor said I was perfect for you. And I was so hopeful. And you were so little. And cute. The day I went to meet you, the weather was gorgeous. I felt great. Super positive. Failure didn’t even enter my mind.

Imagine my shock, when within hours of meeting you I was crippled with fever, cramps, non-stop vomiting, and a complete — ummm. let’s call it “cleanse” — as my body tried to reject you. And still. I wanted our relationship so badly! I overcame the rejection. I worked through it. I focused on the positive: no pills! no gellies! no mess!

No mess? The first period came and it was brutal. There isn’t a brand or size or quantity of tampon in the world that could contain the havoc you sent down my birth canal. Clothes were ruined. Car upholstery was ruined. Sofas were ruined. And it just kept going. What was once a simple affair, 2 or 3 days, was now a week plus! Impossible? Sadly, no. Very, depressingly possible. And accompanied by the kind of bloating I thought only existed in commercials.

How did I not run screaming to the doctor right then? Again. I just wanted this to work so badly. I told myself it would taper off. Next time, surely it would only be 6 or 7 days.

It wasn’t.

Now. It’s five months since we met. And I’m nearing the end of yet another blood bath. Without a single unmarred pair of underwear left to my name. I am done. I will call the doctor today and make an appointment to rid my life of your abuse.

Where will I go next? Who can tell? I just turned 34. I’ve still got a long road ahead of me. I’ve been told the snip-snip is the next logical step. But I know myself — I’m not ready to commit to a permanent relationship.

I just don’t want to have to think about this so hard.

Sincerely,
Gabrielle

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    { 41 comments }

    verybadcat August 31, 2008 at 7:40 pm

    Yikes.

    I’m on the patch. You change it once a week. Moodiness is minimal. Periods are, well, not seven days to nine days of omg-surely I will die bleeding. Also?

    I gained a cup size.

    Check it out. Ortho Evra, I worship thee.

    Ms. Moon August 31, 2008 at 7:50 pm

    Listen- all Mother Nature cares about is that we reproduce ourselves. Over and over.
    Seriously. That, in biology, is all that matters.
    I was a woman of vast fertility. No form of birth control worked for me. And so I had four children, each precious and adored. We’ll not discuss the miscarriages, etc.

    The vasectomy saved my life, my marriage, my sanity.

    Have your babies.
    Then get something snipped.
    Because for us women who were born to birth, that is all that works.

    Karen August 31, 2008 at 7:53 pm

    Why drug-free? The druggie IUDs reduce, if not eliminate, your periods. They’re a little expensive but because they contain a drug, some benefit plans cover them. Ask for a prescription so that you can take one to your appointment for having the drug-free on removed.

    The patch sounds tempting too.

    Katrina August 31, 2008 at 8:12 pm

    I did that gosh awful nor*plant…had 3 weeks of period, one week off. Yeah that worked for bc as I never had sex! Gah! Got a lovely scar from the removal of that terrible crap and recall the nurse walking in and saying…”ew that looks like hamburger meat!” during the removal. How I managed to NOT pass out and/or puke is beyond me.

    I say try the patch but don’t snip-snip anything unless you are 100000% sure no more babies. TRUST ME. It’s too hard and expensive to reverse stuff like that, and it may not work any way.

    Anonymous August 31, 2008 at 8:37 pm

    Check the stats on the Merina IUD it is not really more pleasant to get used to but I and most of my fellow merina users have stopped meeting with the monthly almost entirely. If you are good with that it is something to consider there is much info on the net to aid in your decision and it is much less a abusive on the system than the pill shot and the (doesn’t work long term) spermicide (he is 4 now!)it is working great 12 months in for me except my monthly is so rare I take pregnancy tests just to be sure because I find it hard to believe it just isn’t coming.
    All my best this is a tough road and yes not a discussion for Brothers!

    Kate August 31, 2008 at 8:48 pm

    This sounds all too familiar. I’ve had an IUD for over a year and I don’t get a monthly period anymore – I get a monthly hemorrhage. When I spend extra time in the bathroom to try to deal with this and my husband asks me what I’m doing, I usually say, “bleeding out.” It’s unlike anything I ever could have expected. But I won’t take the pill and other methods aren’t as effective. And there is no way that I’m having any more children. So it looks like I’m stuck with the monthly blood bath until I come up with something better… Sorry you have to deal with this – but it’s nice to know that I’m not alone.

    daysgoby August 31, 2008 at 9:01 pm

    Jesus, you learn something new every day.

    I love my IUD. Because I suck at remembering birth control and well, either he’s Super Sperm or I’m Fertile Myrtle, because we (HA! Always loved that WE) got pregnant TWICE while on (different forms of) birth control.

    But my GOD I thought this monthly four day FLOOD* was some sort of pre-menopause thing (yes, it doesn’t really make sense but waddya gonna do? – and now I find out it’s the IUD?

    Christ. Now I’m all torn and stuff.

    *I’m SO SORRY for the eight days. SO SORRY. Trust me, the four day thing? Is like being on fast-forward. NOT PLEASANT. And STAINING.

    Amy August 31, 2008 at 9:20 pm

    Along with the river of blood I get from my non-hormonal IUD I get CRAZY emotional crap and depression every month. I know there aren’t any hormones in the IUD itself, but I’m convinced all that extra bleeding is throwing my hormones out of whack. Or something. But something needs to seriously change–and it will probably be evicting the IUD. Which I don’t want to do because my sex life is SO MUCH better now that we aren’t using condoms!

    Recovering procrastinator August 31, 2008 at 9:25 pm

    How about Nuva Ring? I know lots of people who are very happy with it.

    Or Natural Family Planning, which is NOT the rhythm method. I’ve been using it successfully for 6 years (only 2 kids, both planned).

    Catherine August 31, 2008 at 9:32 pm

    Get yourself a mirena IUD. My current is my second, after the birth of second child – and I pink puffy heart it. I have no periods. A little stressful at first, but well worth it.

    red pen mama August 31, 2008 at 9:39 pm

    I would second recovering procrastinator. NFP, also known as the Fertility Awareness Method, is not the Rhythm Method. Check out “Taking Charge of Your Fertility”. Easy to learn, easy to do, and no unplanned kids! I’ve been using it successfully for about seven years now. Plus, I actually know what’s going on with my body now.

    Plus, good rant. Birth control can be a total nightmare. Good luck!

    Heather August 31, 2008 at 9:40 pm

    Wow that sounds terrible. Almost makes me happy that it took so long for me to get pregnant last time. Periods are so not fun.

    Andrea August 31, 2008 at 9:44 pm

    Just went to my 6 week post partum check up…thought I could get my IUD inserted…they told me I had to wait until I got my period (my last pregancy – it took me a year to get my period), so I was really upset and mad that I had to wait… now you tell me that what I have to wait for may not be worth it…that’s not what I wanted to hear! Darn Darn Darn!!!

    mary August 31, 2008 at 9:56 pm

    Gawd….thank you for putting our infertility in perspective. We never used anything because we didn’t have to. Hubby had a medical condition in his teens that required some surgical work that essentially vasectomized him, so we knew from early on in the marriage that the sperm count was zero.

    My niece had an IUD and said it was just absolute hell. Her husband got the snip, and it saved their marriage.

    Jill August 31, 2008 at 10:13 pm

    Wow! I’m “this” close to an IUD myself. I’m going to have to have another conversation with my doctor. Did you have really bad PMS or periods before you started birth control?

    egm August 31, 2008 at 10:18 pm

    Great rant!

    Another reason (two, actually) to go Lady Macbeth on the IUD–an acquaintance of mine just had twins who were conceived while she had an IUD in place.

    Natural Family Planning has worked well for me. It might be worth checking out.

    Sandi August 31, 2008 at 10:52 pm

    I am with you on this whole post. I got a merina iud in april and it has been nonstop spotting and cramping since. I hate it.
    However I am 43 years old and don’t have a lot of options with birth control. I am thinking of the tube tying personally.

    Syko August 31, 2008 at 11:03 pm

    Thank heavens for menopause!

    When I first started needing birth control, condoms were about it. The pill came out about the time I got pregnant with my first. I didn’t go on it after she was born though, going back to condoms because there were frightening stories about the pill. After the second baby in 18 months, I took the pill. Gained weight, was moody and nasty, the only good thing I could say for it was that I had wonderful tiny light periods. Then we decided on a third baby. It took years. And three miscarriages. Finally my son was born.

    I had the Dalkon Shield inserted after his birth. Oh. My. God. Every day was like a heavy period, every period was a major hemorrhage. I didn’t feel dressed without a sanitary napkin. After about three months of that hoohaw, I was checking it one day and noticed that the strings were hanging outside of my vagina and when I investigated further I could feel the edge sticking out of my cervix. The next morning it was in my panties. I called the doctor – “Come on in and we’ll reinsert it.” Uh – no. Just call me in a prescription for the pill, thanks. And I went back to the marvelous almost unnoticeable periods that started every fourth Monday between 6 and 7 a.m.

    Divorce came along. I was past 35 so they were not thrilled to have me on the pill, and I got a diaphragm. They don’t do diaphragms any more, do they? Darn shame, because I loved mine. Slather it with spermicide and pop it in, it was good for hours, so any time I thought something might occur, I was ready. And the next morning I’d take it out. It had the added advantage of restraining menstrual flow on those days when the period and a Hot Date happened at the same time.

    Then menopause came along. Nice word. Pause – a gentle thing. Not really. For ten years I had massive frequent periods. I had all sorts of tests, showing nothing wrong, but I was having two 8 day periods a month and everything I owned had bloodstains. I learned too late that peroxide removes them. And finally it stopped. I had three periods in a year, then went 14 months, had one last hurrah, and it was done. I do not miss it.

    Another cute tale about IUDs, my boss’s mother also had a Dalkon Shield. My boss was born with the imprint of the Shield on her arm.

    Some years later there was a class action. I got $750 for saying I thought the Shield made me infertile. My boss’s mom got quite a lot more.

    kittenpie September 1, 2008 at 12:01 am

    Me, I have been a condom girl since I was about, oh, well, let’s say a long time, shall we? Pills make me puke – and yes, I have tried different ones. This way, no mess, no fuss, nothing to remember besides keeping them in stock. But with the birth of this baby next week, I am getting snipped.

    Anonymous September 1, 2008 at 12:30 am

    Just want to weigh in for all those considering an IUD. I, too had a very surprising crampfest from hell the first few periods, especially right after they put it in. I had to call someone to put me in the car and take me home, and I proceeded to get home, take a Percocet, eat an entire box of macaroni and cheese, and sleep for 24 hours. It went uphill from there.
    Now I love my IUD. I have 3 day periods with minimal effects, and I don’t have to worry about taking a pill. So– not everyone hates it!

    PS== Man, Gabrielle… you got boned. Here’s all the luck with whatever’s next.

    Anonymous September 1, 2008 at 10:53 am

    I use the Nuva Ring, and I can’t sing its praises enough! I tried several kinds of pills and the patch, and they all made me an emotional basket case. The ring seems to have much less of an effect on my moods – maybe because the hormones are delivered locally? I only have to remember it twice a month (once to take it out, once to put it in), and it’s super comfortable. My beau says he can tell it’s in there, but it doesn’t bother him. I forget it’s there altogether. My periods are normal – about 4 days of moderate bleeding. And you can skip your period by inserting the new ring early, if you want.

    Anonymous September 1, 2008 at 11:28 am

    big@lie.com
    Just as they "convieniently" lost Del Martin during the Democratic National Convention, so are we witnessing a Republican nemesis during their week to shine:::Hurricane Gustav.
    Expect the Russian invasion of Georgia during the Olympics was an attempt to defeat a very popular black man in his bid for President of the United States.

    CHRISTIANITY@ISTEMPTATION.COM
    Forgiveness is not reality. It is part of the "Big Lie".
    Attonement is how the gods conduct their business.
    Attonement will ocurr in the next life.

    "Everybody" isn't going. I think they "throw" many people away, an explosion of which has been seen in the last 40+ years due to grossly indecent behavior. I think these pre-teen prosititutes fall into this category.
    Rather than lettingthem die I believe the gods reincarnate these individuals AGAIN to further the deterioration of the quality of life in these neighborhoods and on Planet Earth. The gods would find them very useful in this capacity. Only through a drastic, dramatic change can these individuals achieve any hope at self-salvation.

    Been telepathically preaching lately. Hopefully they gods are feeling generous and letting it get through::
    1. California GoldRush, positioning the descendants for the "Californa experience" I speak of below(celebrity/counter cultures, open sex, drugs, alternative lifestyle acceptance, etc).
    2. Money/wealth as a corruptor, actually a sign of disfavor::USA a land of rejects.
    3. Chinese infancide of favored female babies punished with the radical changes in China, a red flag that should shed doubt on the "Big Lie" of economic growth/sucess.
    4. The loss of women as society's "enforcement tool", effectively masculinizing the population through indecency.
    5.
    6.
    For thousands of years life remained essentially unchanged. Now in the last century EVERYTHING has changed.
    They said life would deteriorate before they ended on Planet Earth. This is that deterioration.

    Stop thinking like a "little person".
    Since we were young the positioning we heard has changed, from a more innocent one when we were children to something different as we aged.
    The gods utilize many tactics designed to mislead us. You need to get a "big picture" of how they bring people along during their lives, ensuring minimal or no chance at progress.
    They test us with temptation and too many of us fail:::The Chinese are not the Tibetan's problem. Their DISFAVOR is why. Much like with the Jews in the Holocaust they use the Chinese as scapegoats for their will.

    I don't deserve this. After 40 years of being used, scapegoatted by the gods so they don’t incurr obligation to the disfavored I don't deserve this.
    Tungoogska was 1908.
    2008. I'm so big I would not be surprised if '08 has great significance and we see it playing out AGAIN in my life this year.
    I hope this is the begining of the end and it ruins your big secret.

    You haven't accepted it. Had you acceped it 1.3.2000 woudl have happened and this woudl have ended 8 years ago.
    You needed to give me a way out. Not under "tootlidge", blood-sucking whores. You've double-dipped enough.
    Alone. Because that's what I am about.

    ———————————————————————————————-

    I AM THE ROPE:::The gods use me to prey upon the disfavored. Much as the clue they sent with the Holocaust, they use me to scapegoat their societal goals. One day I will be their sacrificial lamb for this abuse, ironically. This is their purpose for me.
    All the elements described below contribute to the perception of "savior" and contribute to the concept of Christianity WITH THE LEAST AMONG US!!! Ironically, to end this abuse fom the gods I have to sacrifice my "candidacy". Only then will it stop. Sadly, I suspect they willuse another to continue this "savior" positioning, ensuring these people do not take responsibility for their own relationship with the gods.
    However, they have allowed me to try to teach the people in exchange::::

    1. Poker and subsequent Bionion murder 1990s as punishment
    2. Magic – I am good and why we experience an educational event rather than magic-inspired theater, which is what the Bible is.
    When the real thing happens it will "fly under the radar", as we witness here, as opposed to being "celebrated", as in the Bible.
    3. Re-write
    4. Use the word "temps" – clone hosts "on assignment".
    6. Chevron aquisition of troubled Texaco punishment for repression of alternate technologies during 20th century, similar to tobacco industry behavior during the same era.
    7. Reno earthquakes for WHAT HAPPENED TO ME DURING THE trips winter '08. THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT ::::Maintaining the perception of "savior" is CRUCIAL to their positioning. Clues like this, clues like boss CAN'T BE TAKEN LITERALLY!!! They are deceptive, designed as figurative, all part of using me as THE ROPE.
    I don't deserve this. After 40 years of being raped by god so they don’t incurr obligation to the disfavored I don't deserve this.

    In centuries past the use of clone hosts was very limited in number:::Kings, courts, the few wealthy. Now, with the explosion of "entrepeneurial" wealth there are many, many more whom the gods manage.
    I suspect the gods have alligned good and evil consistant with what we experience on Earth:::Good clone hosts may be individuals placed after a child ascends. Evil, sadly of which the enviornment is dominated, accounts for most (they conceal evil while cloaking good in positioning, so this is very difficult to ascentain)::::::
    Consistant with their use of temptation, the gods chose these individuals BASED ON SOME LEGACY OF DISFAVOR, tested them with temptation and, when they failed, reincarnated them. THESE PEOPLE ARE NO LONGER ALIVE!!!! But due to their disfavor the gods CONTINUE TO USE THEM AND THEIR FAMILIES to accomplish destructive goals in our society.
    There seems to be an inverse relationship between the two worlds:::Importance on Planet Earth means a lack of significance up there.
    This is how the system works. It has confused and corrupted people today and they are failing because of it.

    Flanders is on the Simpsons for a reason.
    A while back we were examining the Hammer, how people "take" it when they learn the truth. The "empathetic family" are a good example.
    They shared the "just let it happen", the "price" of being "dealt" into the Situation. The reality is by voluntarily agreeing to early sexaulization this family unwittingly EXCLUDED the boy FROM ASCENTION.
    They fell on their own sword. Expect similar reverse positioning elements to have costed others involved in the Situation.
    "This is going to open it up." They’re not the only ones who are positioned as good for appearance's sake. This Situation employs deception extensively.

    As far as the incidents they like to "produce" when discussing this Situation these events were contrived as their "defense" with Artificiial Intelligence. If the gods fought this war "freestyle" they'd be getting raped as hard as they did to me to set it all up.

    CHRISTIANITY@ISTEMPTATION.COM
    1.3.2000. Sad, obsessed bastards. If you didn't CHEAT you'd be losing because you're in the wrong.
    ——————————————————————————————–

    The gods prosititute black children, utilizing temptation to scapegoat the desperate whom seek their approval, creating a celebratory attitude towards prosisution in black popular culture. Before people cry foul understand they do the same to many whites, pushing them into deciding to NOT give it away, only not at such a tender age.

    Much like the problem of childhood prostitution in the United States today, the gods too are pimps, and despite their grandiose promises all the victims will ever realize is food and shelter.
    "Everybody is going." There is no suchy thing as "everybody":
    - "Everybody" isn't wealthy
    - "Everybody" doesn't have attractive spouses
    - "Everybody" doesn't have a good life.
    They are lying to you all.

    "Everybody" isn't going. I think they "throw" many people away, an explosion of which has been seen in the last 40+ years due to grossly indecent behavior. I think these pre-teen prosititutes fall into this category.
    Rather than lettingthem die I believe the gods reincarnate these individuals AGAIN to further the deterioration of the quality of life in these neighborhoods and on Planet Earth. The gods would find them very useful in this capacity. Only through a drastic, dramatic change can these individuals achieve any hope at self-salvation.

    "He's ruining it." "You ruined it." They just wanted me in a certain environment to see if they could tempt me into evil with their "temps" I speak of below.
    "It" was always going to fail. No matter how well I did they were going to push me into failure in the end. The origin of boss is a clue proving this.

    ——————————————————————————————–

    It is a disgrace:::They offer a "flash", illustrating my time is "running out", when these bullshit lies they try to sell me direc0tly contradict the history::::
    Early sexualization was a clue I am not going. I don't give a fuck what thoughts you push motherfucker.
    They just want all their tools into place to justify my excluson, utilizing their clone host machine in place as scapegoats. This further reinforces what I have said about the gods getting theirs up front, such as :::
    1. John Rockafeller is the REAL Anti-Christ, as opposed to the bullshit theater that will come in the end as the Bible describes and
    They have used other "supporting" opposition, 76, Wrigley, Giannini, others whom "Forrest Gump"'s effect costed (I understand many of these mergers/aquisisions are positioning, trying to alienate ).
    2. Children go to to heaven. The gods pick and choose those whom they want and all others must come back.
    Girls are still god's favored gender. When young, girls will ask questions like "Who am I?", "Why am I here?" This is the gods trying to show the favored gender the path. If boys ever have thiese questions they ocurr later in life, once they have lost their chance.

    As was true in the days of Pharroh, the Roman Empire, Nazi germany and preditory corporate America the gods are essentially spoiled children who take what they want with no regard.
    They like to call the disfavored "evil" yet it is THEIR flag.
    Contrary to popular perception, the run-down nature of WashingotnDC is a clue, a statement regarding the United States and the views of this current administration. Don't forget:::The gods LOVE to ridicule good in their media.
    Which one is it? Good or evil? It's both:::The democratization of Iraq has initiated this antient people into disfavor, as it has done so many times before.
    This is the modern incarnation of temptation::::People understand more than they used to, so to ensure they are sufficiently tested the gods "mix it up".

    After all these years of being strategically raped by god I don't want to hear it anymore.
    I no longer care.
    I'm satisfied to not participate in your "Big Lie".

    They display a pattern of "emotional whorism", pursuing me despite rejection. I refer to the day on Ocean Beach when we realized the supernatural phenominah, compelling me to "look to the gods". With the history and exploitation their forced upon my life my answer was "No.", yet they remain, like puppy dogs following at my heels.
    ——————————————————————————————–

    The Anti-Christ was always a clone host, as were all industrialists, and the coming Biblical battle of good and evil will be scripted and fake as well, and likely only be telepathic theater at that.

    This is how the gods manage clone hosting::::
    Gangsters of the 20s and 30s were too evil to reward them with the sucess seen in corporate America, so the gods took them out and put people into those clone hosts whom were not evil. The gods rotate based on goals, so it is possible they were rotated throuh when corporate was so wicked in the 1980s.
    There is a BIG difference between preditory corporate/media and decent corporate:::::Media items as I list below were used to prey on people, so the gods UTILIZE evil in the context of these clone hosts. These same people would be prohibited from working "quiet time" in corporate because they dont have the favor necessary to NOT incurr evil.
    There are two "temples" at work here::::Good and evil.
    The gods focus on their evil temples, corporate, media and associated temptations.
    They don't even WANT people LOOKING at the good temples and seek to minimize their presence amist the "noise":::::Their temptations attempt to bury the religious life necessary for decency.
    ——————————————————————————————–

    The gods place people with variable morality within clone hosts according to what goals they want accomplished.
    They are, in effect, "temps" (a clue).
    Expect my desire to kill these "temps" who have crossed me to be unrealized symbolism the gods could have used to enhance this theater, if I was willing.
    Expect they dropped many of these clues, created many of these enhancements for the Situation::::::There was a good Jesus who taught before age 30. The switch was made, just as with Mohammed, except the Bible only represents the evil Jesus. Good Jesus's real teachings lie elsewhere, perhaps under a different name, perhaps DELETED forever.
    The difference is Earth is Planet Reverse Positioning and Christianity is evil. Consistant with this posiotioning the gods may want to send this clue by switching me and having the clone host assume some traditional bullshit Christian teachings.
    Remember::::If Christianity is evil then maybe the (real) Anti-Christ is the good one. The gods may want to mix things up like this.

    Story on the Dynasty that Won Only in Crisis.
    "You don’t get anything. Eveything happens around you."
    They said this Sutituation's theme was reflected in Forrest Gump. Other elements of the Situation were justified with a marriage between good and evil::::
    Mondavi chardonnay reserve – Sideways
    Grand Cayman banking – Finding Nemo
    Chevron mascots – Cars
    Japs – Ultraman's Iron Man
    1980s – BJ at Bionion's Hosreshoe – Rounders and the poker phenominah.
    This is a long, long list. Friday we add another half-billion to the total.
    Just as we saw with Cars, when some cronie from Hollywood claimed credit when Cars was quite obviously a Chevron inspiration, so did I see some old man claim credit for Iron Man.
    The Japs aren't John Rockafeller. The Japs are about the offensive, as their products will attest, and providing this "protection" as they did for Chevron shows inferior judgement of the gods yet again.
    I don't deserve this. After 40 years of being raped by god so they don’t incurr obligation to the disfavored Idon't deserve this.
    Tungoogska was 1908.
    2008. I'm so big I would not be surprised if '08 has great significance and we see it playing out AGAIN in my life this year.
    I hope this is the begging of the end and it ruins your big secret.

    The gods willl offer clues suggesting my involvement, tying me to the event for the disfavored's understanding, ensuring the connection is made without actually admitting it OR compensating me.
    I was talking about Sideways a lot and I guess they decided to (finally) allow the Mondavi death to send this clue. Copia fiasco a clue suggesting this????. Somehow through creative accounting taxpayers will have to foot the bill for this "charitable community aset". Expect similar scandal at UCDavis.
    Expect similar clues showing I am the element of good they used to justify Sex in The City.
    Here comes another $500,000,000.
    Just as they sent an important clue with Boss so too is this is a clue::::::Abandon any preconceptions of entitlement.

    Sex in the City isn't the Beatles but this concept was specifically designed to be preditory on women who, as they aged, were candidates for exclusion because of their promiscuity:::::
    I believe there are opportunities that exist for females that do no exist for males. I don't mean to paint with a broad brush but women's "sexual peak" may represent the transistion to "sociological males" and their "fall from grace". Considering today's promiscuity I question the extent to which this is currently applicable.
    This was the purpose of this event originally::::To promote sexual promiscuity among impressionable disfavored women.
    Admittedly, this is a done deal. Their fans likely own seasons, and the damage from the movie will only serve to revisit the established destruction.
    Nothing compared to the Beatles in terms of popular culturue destruciton to the most favoredd gender.
    We don't need to witness the British Invasion to see the evil of the English either. The gods drop many clues, associating English accents with evil.frequently.
    Mark my words their "creative banking" is the element of evil the gods used as justification for the creation of Finding Nemo.

    Just wanted to note::::Every time there is a calamity/"crisis" I am not here to experience it. Of course I have to pay for that absense. Examples::::
    1. 1989 Loma Prieta Earthquake. I was attendingi school at UCSB, something they share "costed me".
    2. Heat wave of 2005(6?). They used this opportunity to max my credit card during this event, making it "ok" in my mind.
    3. Exhorbinantly high gas prices. Got me sick pnemonia.
    There are other examples, although these are the major ones.
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    As people begin to age the gods employ corrupting tactics. They ultimately begin to look down on the children and the wisdom they recently understood:::
    They voluntarily turn their back on their opportunity to ascend and instead embrace evil.
    It's not old people who go to heaven. Old people must come back because of the mistakes they've made throughout their lives. Children are the ones who have the opportunity to ascend.

    Children are discounted by adults in society. The gods corrupt people as they age, use trust-building tactics and soon adults view the children as ignorant, yet to understand the god's system, and subsequently look down on the children. This is one of the most bitter, painful ironies the gods employ, for people consciously turn their back on and lose their opportunity to ascend::::
    Religions teach that old people to go to heaven when they die. They don't. Old people are reincarnated. It's the children who go to heaven, those who have a chance at immortality.
    The wisdom the gods impart to children, either through their innocence/purity or religious-based educational pursuits are the gods sharing the truth with their most favored people::::It's the children whom the gods teach the right way for it is the children who have a chance. For example, they teach children to have faith, for understanding the god's geographical clues hurts people by illustrating negative things, opening the door for the god's to employ deceptive tactics.
    Old people don't go to heaven. Old people must come back because of the mistakes they've made throughout their lives. It's the children who have the opportunity to go to "heaven". They must behave apprioriately, think correctly and be genuinely god-fearing. Their innocence and lack of desensitization ensures they have a real opportunity to achieve this goal.

    This is charecteristic of the gods methodology::::The big prize gone early, deception compels people to chase something that has already been decided. They sent this clue with boss as well. It is also a clue supporting my claim RW&B's german is in fact Christianity's Anti-Christ. Logic also dictates, considering the definition.

    This individual was used to justify the repression of alternative technologies, and in the early/mid 20th century the elimination of productivity enhancing developments like Chicago's underground railroad for merchandise delivery to retail outlets.
    There are other examples like this as well, notably the railroad on the lower span of the Bay Bridge.
    This forced transport via internal combustion vehicles instead.
    This is how the gods do business:::They get theirs right off the bat. The #1 industrailist, the #1 capitalist is the Anti-Christ, and he's been "in charge" for 150 years. 1906 San Francisco Earthquake ocurred to punish the sexual deviacy and hedonism that was so prevalient in The City at that time, positionable with the Anti-Christ AND useful as corruptor in the 20th century.
    Of course this is all telepathic theater. He was just a clone host all along. All those industrialists were.
    Flanders is on the Simpsons as a clue.

    The confusion over this multi-dimentional positioning will serve as an effective tactic, eliminating many additional disfavored in the process, for positioning states the Apocalypse to be a continuation of WorldWarII's Aryan superrace ideals, positioned as punishment for the 5th century invastion of the Roman Empire:::John's Fourth Reich.
    This amounts only to "nested theater":::::Levels of positioning enables the gods to scapegoat:::::RW&B merely is the tool the gods chose to execute the final scene of their scripted theater that is human history.

    Just as they would have had me chase boss so would they have wanted me to sign on to this theater, evil by definition, and chase this role of Anti-Christ. By doing so I would have incurred evil and would have been punished, painfully "losing" Anti-Christ in the process.
    Does that mean RW&B is not the Anti-Christ?? I suspect as they would have "offered" it to me so will there be a fake Anti-Christ for those in these generations to accept as well. But it is a clone host. This is ALL clone host theater, created not as a clue to me but instead designed to be preditory on the disfavored, designed to increase indecency and further the god's goal of justification towards The End.
    We were all merely peasants centuries ago, struggling with our disfavor, but without the enormity of temptations, real and telepathic, which exist today.

    They have shared I was positioned to some disfavored as the Second Coming of Christ, explaining all the evil surrounding me and RW&B's placement in the "eye of The Beast" was to positon the sabotage of my candidacy (Damien Omen, Big Army Men, etc).
    The Big Lie of course is that Christianity is evil:::There was a good Jesus who taught before age 30. The switch was made, just as with Mohammed, except the Bible only represents the evil Jesus. Good Jesus's real teachings lie elsewhere, perhaps under a different name, perhaps DELETED forever.
    The reverse positioning nature of Planet Earth dictates that good is demonized, as we witnessed in World War II, while evil is put on a pedistal, as we see with the Italians.
    The truth? The gods used their tools to create this and the rest of the incidents surrounding this Situation to distract the people from my message, for I speak the truth:::This is the REAL battle of goodand evil. The Anti-Christ was alwasy a clone host, as all industrialists, and the Biblical battle of good and evil will be scripted and fake, and may only be telepathic theater.
    Only you can save you. You have to be responsible for your own relationship with the gods.

    The gods are asexual. They have no sex organs nor rectums.
    When the gods take children these individuals have the opportunity to become "god-like". Temptations are employed and, if sucessful, these are the individuals who make up the human race's immortals.
    I believe there are opportunities that exist for females that do no exist for males. I don't mean to paint with a broad brush but women's "sexual peak" may represent the transistion to "sociological males" and their "fall from grace". Considering today's promiscuity I question the extent to which this is currently applicable.
    I believe Purgatory is real. I think it is a temporary destination, perhaps sparsely utilized until the Apocalypse, but this will be the destination for those who "ascend" during the event. As they've said this planet will too be disposed of one day and it is imperative people try to avoid that destination, for there may be no escaping its fate.

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    It seems quite obvious I am used to force decency upon others.
    Considering the german involvement in Native American elimination I believe the used me for Indian casinos whereas I didn't believe before. I realize people remain corrupted by money but there is enough envidence to suggest I am used to enforce decency upon others, as opposed to the "proactive" PIC, who takes it upon themselves, yet another of the evil companies which people need to look out for.

    Program on lost books of the Bible.
    Mentioned there was a woman made in perfect equality with Adam, one who refused to take a subservient role and rejected his advances. The gods dispatched an angel for her and Lillith ascended. This is yet another clue illustrating that sex hurts people. Considering the paternalistic attitudes of Meditereanean people there's no wonder why it was excluded.
    They subsequently illustrate how Lillith was demonized by these disfavored Meditereaneans. Because Eve was made from man SHE is the source of women's evil.
    This is true::::This IS material written which was rejected when the Bible was compilated. Consistant with the Mohammed clue I suspect we do not experience good Jesus's teachings in the Bible either.They could have intertwined good and evil Jesus, where we had one day/week on, one day/week off. This would have made things exceedingly difficult, and it is hard enough as it is.
    Mohammed is very clearly defined. Take it as a clue.

    Planet Reverse Positioning::::Your infertility was favor, for the gods were granting you more time in hope you could get out "before" this obligation forced you to stay.
    The Italians bred like rabbits:::That they got "pregnant immediately" illustrated their undesirability.
    Your children are the ones with the opportunity now. You must sacrifice to give them the best chance possible.
    It's children who go to heaven, not old people.

    This is the REAL battle of good and evil:::Me vs. god. Of course I'm trying to help you understand that you are corrupted, fell for temptation and are going the wrong way::::WE are the ones who are evil. (While executing the battle of good and evil the gods do some evil things, like role play their clone host tools, forcing thoughts into your head/NO FREEWILL, manage their clone hosts to disceive you::::It appears as if Italians and their descendats built this preditory conglomerate corporate empire we witness but in fact the switch was made. They were sent to the Nazi death camps for punishment/disposal and acceptable individuals were brought in to take their place:::They were too evil to work or participate in a decent enviornment. They were reincarnated as lesser beings. This is how the gods create the perception of evil rewarded.)
    The gods positioning is gangsters are perceived to have developed this multi-national conglomerate enviornment in which the economy (de)volved. Their reality is the Boot, Trans at GSq and the homosexual exploson we saw, not coincidnetally timed with this multi-national conglomerate explosion.
    The gods tested us and we have failed, scapegoatting their tools to ensure people never become god-fearing. Artificial Intelligence merely role plays these clone hosts in your head to mislead you. They don't need to use anybody firsthand, although they can employ ANY tool from history if necessary. They would just make up a new Julius Ceasar just as they'd make up a new George Washington to produce before you if they had to.
    Learn what I teach and try to uncorrupt yourselves. NOBODY IS GOING TO SAVE YOU!! You have to save yourselves by repairing your relationship with the gods.

    This is how the gods do business:::::They use temptation and deception to compel people to chase something that has already been decided. It's children who go to "beaven". OLd people have to come back. The gods will use their power to contradict this, corrupting people and compelling them to incurr evil::::They used the Italians to ruin life in the 20th century, cost you the Final Prophet and the result will be death as you wait for the Italian Second Coming of Christ to save you:::Participating in this lie is going to cost you your life.
    This is the god's positioning and it IS going to be enforced. Never forget::::The gods have always offered "protection" to those genuinely religious. It is something that was always respected, even in the wicked 20th century.

    They gave back the Mormon's children. They never intended to take them.
    It only took less than a week to poison those children's minds. They are going to lose some of them because of this.
    They've gone from reading the Bible to playing GrandTheftAutoIV. And this was the goal.
    Never forget:::::The gods did this to you. You are being punished for your sin of polygamous sex, and they deem some of your children "acceptable losses" to achieve this.
    Joseph Smith and Brigham Young were evil. They used these tools to prey on the least among us.
    Polygamy is uncommon among whites. Mormons draw upon morbidly disfavored Mediterreanean religions as justification for polygamy. Their level of disfavor is ALARMING.
    The gods are big on "compensatory" and is why Mormons neither drink, smoke, etc.::::Fashion is something that hurts people, and FLDS applies healthy priniciples in their attire. However, the Catholic Church teaches sex only for procreation, and this is accurate as well. Actually it can be viewed as liberal, for the goal is to ascend and the gods place great importance on virginal innocence, illustrated by as my infertility example below.
    If you people knew how many of your children fail and the price you pay because of that sexually impure environment you subject them to you would be devistated.

    "Very fast growing tumor, 3 months ago may not have been detectable."-MD
    Ted may be good and this is his punishment for the evil of endorsing Osama. Similarly, JFK started the Vietnam War.
    People may be confused, since both are clone hosts. There are good clone hosts which the gods could use to send a clue, the Ted Kennedy-Osama malignant cancer being a good example.
    If these people were evil they wouldn’t be getting this "feedback". Of course as highly visible figures this "feedback" is for us.
    When it comes to "acceptable losses" it is ALWAYS best to let the gods do it through "acts of god". This is one of the things clone hosts learn when they "come around".

    "You think you're better than us." You're right. I do. This is a big fucking deal and I would have given my victim a chance::::You demand sacrifice but don't offer any yourselves.
    You impact my ability to reach these people, either instructing AI to affect my thoughts or my ability to write. "You'll get your chance." This may or may not be true:::You should know not to trust them by now. Either way it won't be me. I'll be someone else, reincarnated, with different abililies, attitudes and experiences.
    "You hooked up with the Italians and that ended it." This is one way how the gods are using The Italian Boot to perpetuate temptation and failure::::At this late of date Italian rule is implied among the stagnant disfavored. Society's concerted effort preying upon blacks is a clue (movies, music, drugs/alcohol, food, etc).
    Because the gods role play their positioning in the context of the Situation too many people will wait for some mythical savior, someone who they think will save them from their own evil acts of compliance, someone who will save them from their own immorality.
    When people realize Christianity is evil and how it has misled them they will understand this mistake.

    Boss was "back-handed help" created to mislead the disfavored while sending a clue about "chasing" a benefit that is already gone. The Final Prophet is another example of the god's "back-handed help"::::I speak the truth, try to help the disfavored but it allows the gods to wash their hands of culpability.
    The Final Prophet buys the gods off the hook. That you dscounted me as a result of their Italian positioning is of no consequence to them:::::The package has been delivered.

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    Females are better people than males.
    They share the women sense loss at graduation and other significant life events while the males are generally without this insight. The gods will impart wisdom to the favored gender. Depression women experience after childbirth is another outstanding example, for the gods are offering the favored gender a clue illustrating their loss.
    Historically the role of females was as enforcers of decency. Men have god's disfavor and enagage in behavior damaging to themselves and their families. Women who adhered to this crucial role helped the men understand and avoid inappropriate behavior while enhancing decency in their domestic environment. These women sacrifice to help the disfavored:::They are like Jews, scattered throughout Europe to help the misled Christians or the Amish today, living in purity and simplicity.
    Many disfavored groups embrace "paternalistic superiority" and believe the men are "entitled"::::;If Italian women tried to enforce decency the men beat and raped them.
    The gods subsequently used this Italian charecterisitic to corrupt other morbidly disfavored groups, legitimizing this and other associated behavior whereas decency in society may have been able to hep correct this disfavor. This is very similar to the "clone host" issue, where the gods corrupt normal people into thinking they are one of them.

    Forgiveness:::Some Meditereanean preaches the virtues of "forgiveness". I guess. Bunch of preditors pursuing self-preservation. It was their kind and their friends who fucked up Planet Earth.
    The Jesus who preached forgiveness was evil, the same Jesus backed by the god's powers via miracles.
    "Forgiveness" has made Planet Earth unsustainable.
    "Eye for an eye makes the world blind." Oh, no::::"Eye for an eye" conditions people and forces them to behave appropriately.
    One goal of the Iraq War was to eliminate Saddam Hussein. Saddam Hussein was an OUTSTANDING leader for the disfavored Iraqis. He kept the peace among the grossly disfavored which, once US pullout is complete, may never be achieved again.
    If Saddam Hussein was assigned American urban ghettos the blacks whom resided there would become decent, and their children would have a real opportunity to ascend where none exists today.
    "Forgiveness" is yet another dynamic of Christianity which is preditory.
    Italians ruined life in the 20th century, yet you still patronize their organizations. The gods interpret this as you have forgiven them for their wickedness. As a result of your "trust" they have CHEATED you out of the Final Prophet, and as victors they will receive Second Coming of Christ. You will be sold on salvation until the day comes when you realize you have been misled. On that day you will realize forgiveness is reverse positioning. On that day you will realize Christianity is evil. On that day you will realize your irresponsibility has costed your life.

    This current environment where the gods punish evil covertly enables the perception of evil rewarded and the corruption that results produces a planet which is not sustainable.
    We no longer receive largescale contradicting feedback because the gods have decided to end on Planet Earth. Consistant with their methodology it begins with the most disfavored among us first.

    Unfuck Planet Earth::::The gods will do everything in their power to prevent this, maintaining the myriad of temptations they instilled, for they worked very hard to set up this degenerative environment, ensuring Earth is not sustainable.

    Don't be distracted by their middle-management tactic. Considering how many racist Italians there were expect the high-heeled transsexual's Boot is represented out working the streets of Oakland, as it was so prevalient during the homosexaul explosition in the 20th century, ironically. The gods LOVE their poetic justice:::"Tough guys" come back as transsexuals. Cashier at GSq. is (was) there for a reason::It's a family member reincarnated, isn't it?
    "It's not fair." Fair woudl have been to make an example of Italians as they stepped off the boat, but this killing spree woudl have helped Earth maintain sustainability, and the gods used the Italians for something quite the opposite.
    "And the Jews!!!", the Italian's 20th century partners in crime.
    Pre-Holocaust Jews::::
    Exect the gods corrupted many of them, sold them on this "project" and used this evil to justify initiating them into clone hosting, so as the Italian filth of the 20th and 30s departed to die in Jew clone hosts in Nazi death camps many of these Jews were placed into their Mediterreanean brother's bodies in the United States.
    And it's not just the obvious::::The Jews were very active in the social deterioration that was the 1960s.
    The Meditereaeans are European's inferiors, yet the god's positioning put them on a pedistal as corruptor AND clue::::This is the region where the gods killed untold tens of thousands in the Noah's Flood event. Their women traditionally consume alcohol and it severely impacted the culture's decency. The Jews fell for Joshua's warmongering despite witnessing Moses firsthand. 1906 was used to corrupt Italians, compelling them to engage in unspeakable evil. Positioning says they compensated the Jews for WWII, revenge for the 5th century german invasion of the Roman Empire. The reality is the gods used money as a corruptor, casting vasts numbers of both groups into Damnation with this tactic snd employing the perception of evil rewarded to corrupt all of us effectively.

    The gods expend most of their efforts planning for and executing temptation designed to test people::::Considering the premiere importance they place in evil in the context of executing their strategy I suspect good takes a back seat.
    Christianity is a lie. They have an interest in maintaining this perception of an absentee Christian god, lest people become genuinely god-fearing. The alternative is embracing the concept of "evil god", much like the black pimps I speak of above.
    The gods are like pimps. They pimp everyone who complies with their lies, and like in Oakland you won't get anything out of it either.

    As the Italian legacy is preditory on others, Irish legacy is preditory on their own kind. Preditory on their own children.
    Not all Italians were gangsters, and not all Italians fell prey to the god's 1906 positioning. Similarly, not all Irish prey on their own children. But if my family were Italian we'd be the godfather. Certainly we're on the list.
    "Camera's broken!"

    The gods are very free with the term "acts of god" for good reason::::Weather/climatic calamities are the gods inflicting their wrath upon the people AND accepting culpability.
    I believe when the gods permanantly eliminate someone's life they so within the context of their control and positioning, and ALL weather-related events are possible opportunities. This is not to say they kill all involved in an incident, formost arereincarnated, but being "acts of god" they have the freedom to elimnate based on their discretion.
    Similarly, it is possible for the gods to accomplish these goals within the context of a living manifestation here on Earth::::Brain-less clone hosts, controlled entirely by Artificial Intelligence. The Nazi death camps are a good example::::
    One of these camps one (temporarily) may have been staffed with brain-less clone hosts for this official disposal event. There was great numbers of evil, wicked trash from the 20s and 30s, individuals which likely wasn't allowed to survive, and using brain-less clone hosts granted the gods the opportunity to use this event to punish some but also to eliminate the worst.
    Events like bio-technology's AIDS virus is attributable to human behavior and is considered by the gods to be the "human condition". Fortunately, because of this it has never claimed any lives either:::ALL victims of AIDS are reincarnated.
    Of course AI can create AIDS symptoms and "take someone down" without that individual getting the product, but the African event was indiscriminate.
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    There is one geographic clue I have not addressed in years:::Uranus, a planet tilted 90 degrees on its axis. I have stated in years past that I think this is yet another geographic clue offered by the gods, this one suggesting the fate of planet Earth, that tectonic plate subduction would be the method of disposal:::Earth’s axis will shift breaking continental plates free and initiating mass subduction.
    Undesirables will either perish in the government marijuana erradication program "gone awry" or be the recipients of reparations granted by the US government because of it.
    Or both.
    I believe the New Testiment battle of the Anti-Christ and the Second Coming of Christ will ocurr in subsequent years SPECIFICALLY because these people will be distracted with the money during the event.
    When the Earth's axis shifts people will be cast into outer space with gold cards in hand.
    I think this was foreshadowed on an episode of the Simpsons where Homer and Bart are on the disfavored ship and eject, only to experience a sense of euphoria, expand then explode in the vacuum of space.

    Recall I recently brought up the possible Manifest Destiny-positioned Chinese invasion of the United States (west coast) upon economic abandonment by their clone host tools (economic destruction and deterioration.mp3). They have mentioned this in years past.
    Newspaper just made a curious change where they combined the sports and business sections, and to properly read the business section you need to read "backward". Like Asian languages.
    Tariffs. The gods are instruct their tools to defend open free trade, as they will to the bitter end. The gods have a script and they need economic (d)evolution sufficient to justify what they have scripted for our future, so they use their tools to adamantly defend this concept of fair trade::::The time for tariffs has long since past.
    Recently they have stated that the Chinese are holding US paper. Some patriot W is, selling US debt to communists. Perhaps the invasion will be a way to "redeem" these bonds after they've fallen into default.
    Incidentally, the Chinese recalls (lead-based paint on toys, toothpaste, etc) may be in preparation for this invasion, a tactic esuring a percentage of disfavored affected will fight to the bitter end.
    I've recently stated how the gods will use the Japanese as role models to the Chinese as China becomes increasingly Westernized. Expect a cultural movement celebrating Japanese culture in decades prior, much as we witnessed in the west in the past.
    If we do witness a Chinese invasion on American soil don't be surprised if the very same tactics the Japanese employed on the Chinese will be used on us. Lack of empathy is a dynamic the gods will find important in the context of justification, niggers:::
    I've recently stated how the gods will use the Japanese as role models to the Chinese as China becomes increasingly Westernized.
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    Recall how Americans so frequently laughed at the French for their lack of military response when confronted by the Nazi army. To resist would have been suicide. Their reaction was appropriate. The opposite would be one as we witnessed in Vietnam. These are morbidly disfavored Asians and take great pride in their resistance. The gods DO use their pride in resistance by positioning in appropriate temptation, ensuring minimal sucess.
    If events transpire I recommend you respond like the French and not like the Vietnamese. If this is a west coast event it may not have serious effect but if it is nationwide the United States will lose over a hundred million in the South and midwest.
    DO I believe this is a possibility? I believe Chinese infantcide represents the end of this senario. I think the "leveling of the playing field" that has ocurred in the late 20th century with Westernization and capitalism has eliminated the possibility of using the Chinese to save us from ourselves.

    It doesn't matter. McCain doesn't have a chance. Osama's too good. The debates will be one-sided. I can get into the explanation that the gods only use their power to hurt the disfavored, but you've already heard it. Consistant with this, expect gas to climb to $4 if not $5 this summer, ensuring the election is delivered to the wrong candidate::::They've used the price of gas to punish the people for electing the wrong person. In addition, public response to recent poor economic reports ensures conservative behavior, another factor which is intentionally damaging to McCain's chances.
    IN 2000 you didn't have a choice, and they sent this clue very nicely with proceedings surrounding the election (just like the 2008 Democratic candidate due to Superdelegates!!!). But 2004 was different. In an ironic twist it will be just the opposite this year, where the gods use the price of gas and run-down economy diverts you TO their prefered candidate. It's ocurring intentionally for this purpose.
    You idiot redneck political types are the chumps here. 1998::::Something for everybody. Clinton's impeachment was for people like you. ANYTIME the kids support a candidate it is a RED FLAG, and they supported Clinton in 1992.
    It is VERY important that you think clearly::::::::It's important you differentiate between your thoughts and when the computer thinks through you. They've led many into Damnation with this tactic.
    I'd like to note "Deja vu", a clue the gods offer to the disfavored::::In an incident similar to the 1998 Clinton impeachment, Osama delivered his speech on race one day before the 5-year anniversary of the Iraq War.

    As I noted before in an earlier version:::Arizona is good. Arizona fought making MLK Day a holiday. CNN shares McCain voted against making MLK Day a holiday in 1983.
    This is quinessential reverse positioning::::People don't recognize the positive and instead are deceived by the god's reverse positioning, costing themselves the best candidate for the job.
    7.44's Port Chicago explosion, in the "eye of The Beast", was a planned incident in WorldWarII. The Italians who planned WWII knowingly used Port Chicago as the seeds of Civil rights because of this symbolism.
    Segregation is favor bestowed upon people. Integration represents a deterioration which the gods will use as justification. Considering its global effect people should be alarmed:::We have witnessed a global "leveling of the playing field" event.
    Prior to civil rights blacks had their own press. In the absence of civil rights they would have grown into legitimate media outlets. This is not to say the gods wouldn’t have put forth contradictory Manifest Destiny programming to counter, but blacks would have had a choice where none exists now. Similarly, black industrialist would have arisen to serve the black community, and the presence of these black billionaries would have fored the gods to factor them into positioning, excluding such Manifest Destiny abused such as AIDS in Africa, drive-by gangbanging and the crack epidemic.
    Civil rights is a wonderful example of a "Big Lie", reverse positioning that can help people see and think clearly. They sent this clue to blacks with MLK's "If I had to sneeze" speech.
    McCain's our man.

    After 2003 John McCain stated his opposition to the war. Despite this pro-war "party line" he must adhere to as the Republican candidate I'd like this opposition used during the campaign. Without it he is finished.
    "McCain's a dinosaur." So was matchmaking. So was decency.
    People don't understand this issue. They see Osama and think he's the best candidate because he's appears to have more favor. Never look for consistancy, for Artificial Intelligence is infinitly dynamic:::They make W sound like an idiot when he speaks for a different reason. Also, "sumbling" and "idiot" likely have separate meanings associated. Sorry. It's not supposed to be easy.
    The gods have their plan and they aren't going to allow any "do-gooders" interfere with how they intend to proceed:::When they put forth good they create tactics to play off the public's misconceptions::::Make him stumble over his words, etc. The gods send this clue in the Situation:::I'm trying to help people and they ruin my delivery to ensure the number of people who are receptive is minimized.
    Don't forget::::The gods will create the perception of favor then corrupt the disfavored with it. My example is Mormons who have the appearance of favor. The gods use this to corrupt the others, even use it to enhance the ranks of LDS. And if any of you LDS think that "We've changed." can look to the Catholic Church as the roots of Christianity to help you understand.
    Yes both candidates are clone hosts. Yes the gods will switch them out to justify them being good or evil, depending on how the script reads. But much as I explained this "multi-dimentional" thinking is not for you. The gods use this as a corruptor. They'll sell this, lie to the disfavored and use this as temptation.
    "Your child is Hitler. Fuck him over." is just one example:::If you don't do the best you can for your children the gods will punish you.
    This is the life into which you've been placed. This is the life on which you will be judged.

    Malcolm X, assassinated. Martin Luther King, Jr., assassinated.
    What is the possibility the "powers that be" refuse to allow a black man as president of the United States?
    Imagine his usefulness as martyr. We may have some excitement in store for us.
    Al Gore could run for president after the FreeMasons assassinate Osama:::
    Considering the nature of this country the possibility of this event is justifiable. The gods would have an open door for scapegoatting, Freemasons one which they will likely use with blacks. Gottta keep the thug life popular.

    In case you are still interested in the god's Planet Earth theater, favored redwhite&blue is a MAJOR player, and their favor is significant to justify not only the destruction of my life but the destruction of the Final Prophet and Planet Earth as well::::
    Favored redwhite&blue is the true enemy of the people. I suspect consistant with this they are positioned responsible for the environmental deterioration that the repression of alternate technologies has wrought.
    The gods put their positioning into place and then enforce it:::Christianity, Manifest Destiny, Sigmund Freud's psychoanalysis, 1906's New Roman Empire. I suspect World War II's Nazi ideals of "Aryan superrace" is another example of the gods getting their tools into place for the theater that will be the Apocalypse.
    Because of their status as enemies of the New Roman Empire the germans are going to be positioned as the destructors, similar to how they were portrayed in World War II.
    Don’t be surprised if favored redwhite&blue turns out to be the Anti-Christ and leads the Fourth Reich, fulfilling this positioning and proving to the world the destructive nature of this economic system. This may not be exactly how their script reads, but the god's have a BIG SURPRISE like this to spring on the disfavored, and it will contain an insult like this as a clue NOT to watch this theater::::::Expect they will fulfill some contrived positioning foreshadowed in WorldWarII:::Some American plays the role of hero and emerges as the Second Coming of Christ for this final scene.
    Who will it be? Italian? Look for at least the mother to be Italian, consistant with matrilineal descent, allowing the New Roman Empire to claim the Second Coming of Christ. It’s all just theater. The gods don't admit any of this because people woudl freak, especially as we approached the big day.

    People may say “How can they poisiton favored redwhite&blue in as the Anti-Christ?” It may be consideration. Don’t forget:::They prey on enemies of the Roman Empire out of respect for their Manifest Destiny superiors.
    The gods positioning the Italians gave it to him for his loyalty. They gave it to him for his efforts to defeat alternate technologies/energy sources, ensuring the people would be delivered to the point of desperation.
    It’s all theater. The gods position it that the New Roman Empire is dooling out the “big prizes”, and Anti-Christ is a big role. Likely the gods position it as it buys him immortality in the context of this absentee-Christian god positioning. The “help” of this “back hand” is the gods positioned that he needs this to achieve immortality because of all the evil he engaged in during the course of his life, building his organizational empire.

    There is a issue with timing and the beginning of construction of disfavored redwhite&blue's center, one where this company looks bad.
    I personally believe the favored redwhite&blue is the element of favor necessary for my failure, for if it were just the disfavored redwhite&blue involved the gods would have let them fry and we would have had a full-blown prophet event, one where our “absentee Christian god” emerged and revealed themselves.
    In addition favored redwhite&blue had to maintain appearances. Disfavored redwhite&blue is Italian and was VERY involved in the 20th century's ugliness.
    My life was destroyed becuase the gods had to create unrespecability in the context of positioning. Evident by their easily-discovered evil, disfavored redwhite&blue wouldn't have cared if I was respectable or not, for they were involved in great evil against the respectable.
    Favored redwhite&blue is why I am fat. Favored redwhite&blue is why I was sedintary, for if I were respectable the gods wouldn't have been able to position favored redwhite&blue into the Situation. Because of their ethnicity they get the priveledge of looking good. This is one reason why they got that prior knowledge and constructed their center before the Situaiton began::::Favored redwhite&blue is the TRUE Enforcer.
    Incidentally, in the course of this Situation the gods made many movies, using daily events in my life as inspiration. One of note:::Unhappy about the god's behavior in the context of this event, while in favored redwhite&blue's facility I looked at their mascot and flippantly declared::::"Why don't you make a movie about these things?" Two years later ____ came out.
    They won't admit this because favored redwhite&blue has to maintain their reputation based on integrity, any creative claims countering this truth were attemtpts to protect this, for this movie was unseemly and was very telling about the direction the gods were taking the people.
    And, as an added bonus they had their scapegoat without actually compensating him!!! Welcome to the pathology of the gods.
    In case you are still interested in the god's Planet Earth theater, favored redwhite&blue is a MAJOR player, and their favor is significant to justify not only the destruction of my life but the destruction of the Final Prophet and Planet Earth as well::::
    Favored redwhite&blue is the true enemy of the people. I suspect consistant with this they are positioned responsible for the environmental deterioration that the repression of alternate technologies has wrought.
    The gods put their positioning into place and then enforce it:::Christianity, Manifest Destiny, Sigmund Freud's psychoanalysis, 1906's New Roman Empire. I suspect World War II's Nazi ideals of "Aryan superrace" is another example of the gods getting their tools into place for the theater that will be the Apocalypse.
    Because of their status as enemies of the New Roman Empire the germans are going to be positioned as the destructors, similar to how they were portrayed in World War II.
    Don’t be surprised if favored redwhite&blue turns out to be the Anti-Christ and leads the Fourth Reich, fulfilling this positioning and proving to the world the destructive nature of this economic system. This may not be exactly how their script reads, but the god's have a BIG SURPRISE like this to spring on the disfavored, and it will contain an insult like this as a clue NOT to watch this theater::::::Expect they will fulfill some contrived positioning foreshadowed in WorldWarII:::Some American plays the role of hero and emerges as the Second Coming of Christ for this final scene.
    Who will it be? Italian? Look for at least the mother to be Italian, consistant with matrilineal descent, allowing the New Roman Empire to claim the Second Coming of Christ.

    This entire event was something special, and consistant with segmentation they lied to different disfavored based on their chances :::Saved or The Damned.
    To The Damned I am an enemy of the Roman Empire, someone to be destroyed and used, and if the disfavored found that acceptable it worsened their lot, costed them hope and was a clue any recovery would be a very tough road to hoe.
    The saved saw other clues, boss, natural calamities, and it gave rise to me as a possible historical figure. The gods offered clues that neither "savior" nor "new king of Earth" was possible, for Christianity positioning is going to be fulfilled and Earth has to die.
    I don't think we were ever talking about Second Coming of Christ in public circles, for this would have implied The End and that would have compelled people to freak. But in the context of private positioning, perhaps to clone hosts in The Beast, certainly to me, there may have been some connection::::
    Jesus of course was Jew, and they positioned this was a competition, reasoning "Since the Jews got Jesus they get this too.", and that's why I was hired by the Jew. Expect this was a way to enhance the theater among the disfavored.
    So positioning states by delivering me to these New Roman Empire monsters they knew I'd get fucked, and in the process forfeit this historical role, to the Jews, perhaps an Italian, for Italians granted "charity wealth" to Jews for planning/implimenting WWII and the Holocaust.
    In light of this "New Roman Empire", since Christianity's HQ is in Rome expect the Italians played some part in this historical, religious context.
    They suggested this event may already may have happened. If so this was the FAKE battle of good and evil, FAKE battle between the Second Coming of Christ and the Anti-Christ. They suggest the phoniness about it which was communicated to the disfavored telepathically was a clue. Ironically, this Situation is the REAL battle of good and evil, me vs. the gods.
    When the REAL battle of the Second Coming of Christ and Anti-Christ occurrs it will be theater, a staged event, and the Second Coming of Christ will "lead out" a pre-selected group, all of whom sign on to the god's Christianity positioning, ironically incurring evil by participating and limiting their time in the process.
    Italians:::"(We're all that. We deserve Second Coming.)" And they're going to get it.
    The Boot will fuck you yet again::::People know Jesus isn't the son of god, yet this is what the Bible dictates as requirement to be saved.
    Those whom the Second Coming will "lead out" will be a pre-selected group. But the "hangers on", people who think they will be included by claiming to be believers will be disappointed. They will be mislead, left behind, The Boot's final victims on Planet Earth.
    This is unimportant, irrelevant, because much like the creation of the perception of "savior" around Jesus to distract from his original purpose the gods used their tools to create this theater around me to prevent the disfavored from learning what I teach:::The Boot has fucked the disfavored twice, once when they ruined life in the 20th century, again when they were used to CHEAT you out and disposal of the Final Prophet. Just as they were talking heads for favored redwhite&blue expect this act to be cover for this organization, an original placement long before Italian placement in the "eye of The Beast".
    Eiother way, the New Roman Empire is god's Manifest Destiny positioning, and a clue they intend to fulfill their Christianity positioning as well.

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    Life used to be hard. People had to walk a mile to draw water. There was no refridgeration or canned foods. Now life is easy, but only in terms of life's "basic necessities".
    The "salvation" dynamic is quite the opposite:::We paid for our easy lives with our very souls.
    Life IS hard now. The gods have used their clone host tools to create the perception of evil rewarded (Italians, Japanese, etc) and then corrupted the disfavored with it. (Expect Asian Westernization is met with a European-style short memory span, allowing the gods to use their historical enemy, the Japanese, to corrupt Asians as they used the Italians to corrupt us).
    Before life was easier, more simple, innocent, pure. Employing these temptations ensured corruption is EXTREMELY difficult to overcome, a tactic which progressively ensures fewer disfavoreds repair their relationship with the gods.

    Anissa Mayhew September 1, 2008 at 11:35 am

    Well. I was just going to say that having them boil out the lining of my uterus has given me a permanent fix if you’re done having kids that really does offer a no baby, no fuss, no muss solution.

    BUT WHOA, I have to follow THAT diatribe? Jeeeez!

    lavandula September 1, 2008 at 11:36 am

    oh gabrielle you poor girl! i hope you find something that is gentle AND effective…i am too old for pill now but tried using it when my hubby and i were still dating and i was a raging psychopath.he told me maybe you should stop using those pills…after my second child was born i had an iud put in and went from very light 3/4 days period to bleeding non-stop for 9 days and nights….i have four children…when # 4 was almost a year old my hubby went for a vasectomy and IT.DIDN’T.TAKE. WHAT THE HELL?! we know at least 5 freinds etc who had it done and no problem…and now my period is late again. i am peri-menopausal and am praying that it just skippeed last month…

    whensheworeponytails September 1, 2008 at 12:45 pm

    I am going to use the pill after my last baby. But I’m going to also use the snip snip of the tubes, too. The pill is just back up and to fight the PMDD.

    I really hope you find something.

    Anonymous September 1, 2008 at 1:06 pm

    wow, that sucks. The thought of something just hanging out inside my uterus freaks me out, so I guess it’s a good thing because this sounds terrible.

    I would just like to add my assvice, if I may. Nothing worked for me either, condoms suck, the pill gets forgotten, and the patch is not sexy (plus it made me totally nauseous). The ring has really been the best thing i’ve tried and I would totally recommend that if you plan on having more kids. if not, your husband can bear the responsibility of the snip snip because it’s easier for guys than tubal ligation is for us.

    Anonymous September 1, 2008 at 1:17 pm

    I just wanted to mention that the IUD works incredibly well for some people, incredibly poorly for others (and presumably there are some for whom it’s okay but nothing special, too). I’m one of the ones it works very well for. I did have some cramping after insertion (like the first day of a not-very-bad period; ibuprofen took care of it), and the first couple of periods were long (my husband said, “Ten days? That’s not a period, that’s a line!”) but not painful. Since then, no problem, normal-length periods of three or four days. I get a little bit of spotting the day before my period, which I never used to do, but it’s not more than enough to act as a kind of early warning system. I have the non-hormonal IUD, by the way.

    I’m told that most people know within a couple of months if the IUD is for them, and for those who keep on with it, it has the highest satisfaction rating of any birth control method.

    daysgoby September 1, 2008 at 1:27 pm

    I’m agreeing with anon at 1:17 – obviously mine hasn’t been all rack and ruin, or else I would have had it removed in the last three years.

    I wish something worked better, though!

    The Stiletto Mom September 1, 2008 at 3:28 pm

    I have the Merina IUD…it SUCKS. Gabrielle is right about the 8 day periods. And…if you accidentally anger it? Like on a rollercoaster or something? It will stab you in the uterus and make you bleed on the spot. I can tell you that when it happened to me, Disney was so not the happiest place on earth.
    Did the pill for years, then did the shot…gained 10 lbs on that so that ended. The onto the nuva ring…I still can’t talk about that, just way way to gross.
    My husband informed me he was going to get snipped after the birth of our last child. That was 7 years ago…hey, he’s been busy. :)
    Good luck Gabrielle…and congrats on having a husband!!!

    The Stiletto Mom September 1, 2008 at 3:50 pm

    Note to last comment…congrats to Gabrielle about having a HOT husband as she mentioned, not just “having a husband” which from my experience can either be something to congratulate people on or give condolences.

    Anonymous September 1, 2008 at 10:28 pm

    I tried the Mirena & it was a NIGHTMARE…when I finally went to the GYN to get it out, the DR had to dig around for 15 mins with a flashlight & other various, frightening utensils before he could find it. Then he had to UNWRAP THE WIRE FROM AROUND MY CERVIX…I am now on the Nuva Ring…sooo much better =]

    LD September 1, 2008 at 11:13 pm

    which IUD did you get?? Mirena has be excellent for me-

    Theresa September 2, 2008 at 6:45 am

    I’m using Mirena with no complaints at all. it really is such a personal thing, what works for one, doesn’t work for others. Hope you find your solution soon!

    Dani September 2, 2008 at 7:14 am

    I’m loving the vasectomy. It didn’t hurt me a bit, I’ve had no side affects and my periods haven’t changed. Perfect

    Vicki September 2, 2008 at 11:21 am

    OMG!! I feel for you. I am currently preggers so I’m not worrying with the birth control. Before it was the pill and I was a basket case too. Not sure what I’m gonna go with the next time around. Still trying to figure out if there’s gonna be a fourth or not…

    caramama September 2, 2008 at 1:17 pm

    That just totally sucks! I’m so sorry to hear what you are going through.

    I agree with Red Pen Mama that you should check out Taking Charge of Your Fertility. It’s really great, and definitely one way to go.

    Also, have you considered the diaphram? I tried one, and it was okay. Better than condoms, not as good as nothing (for him, for me it was like nothing). You put it in right before sex, just like a condom. You remove it a few hours later, so there is something to remember then.

    Good luck to you!

    Incognito September 2, 2008 at 4:22 pm

    I’m 50 years old and peri-menopausal, using Mirena IUD for almost five years and probably have some hormonal imbalances, but overall, I love it. Periods are very rare and super minimal (about five minutes). I’m very happy with it and agree that it is a process to just find what works for you. Good luck.

    Steph September 3, 2008 at 12:47 pm

    I could have written this myself a year and a half ago. I am now on Yasmin. So far so good.

    Kimberly September 3, 2008 at 3:23 pm

    Yours is the 3rd or 4th nightmare IUD story I’ve heard. Now, I know they work great for some people, but with my luck . . . no thanks.

    Mimi September 4, 2008 at 8:51 am

    I did the IUD fo years and basically put up with it because getting pregnant was not an option. When my ODD needed BC she ended up with the Nu.va Ring and has tried taking oral contraceptives once to see if she’d like it better, then went back to the ring because she says she didn’t realize how good she had it! Convenient, easy to use and it works!!!

    Anonymous September 16, 2008 at 12:33 am

    Yegads I’m glad to be a lesbian. The last birth control I used was The Sponge (R.I.P.) But what happened to diaphragms? If they weren’t broke, why fix (or replace) ‘em?

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