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Duodecade

September 22, 2008

Twelve years ago, today, we married. Twelve years ago today, we were only two, but we held our future in our hearts and we knew that it was bigger, so much bigger, than we two. Twelve years later, we hold our future in our arms; we clutch our two to our chests and marvel at [...]

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That’s Me In The Corner

July 23, 2008

Two years ago, after BlogHer ’06, I wrote this: “I left behind something that I think that I am going to miss… the me who was happy and fulfilled in the absence of the loves of my life. The me who could assimilate the quiet ache that is that absence, the pressing ache of those [...]

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21 Days

June 8, 2008

Nothing which we are to perceive in this world equalsthe power of your intense fragility: whose texturecompels me with the color of its countries,rendering death and forever with each breathing… nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands.

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She

May 28, 2008

I do it every night now. When it’s dark, when the rest of the house is asleep, or almost, I untangle my tiny newborn bundle from my arms and lay him down in his nest and ease my birth-battered body from our bed. I make my way – gingerly, gingerly – around the bed, supporting [...]

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Fear And Loving In The Mother ‘Hood

April 28, 2008

I don’t know about you, but I’ve never in my life felt more more fearful, more anxious, less brave, than I have as a mother. From the moment that the lines on that stick turned pink the first time around, I’ve been afraid. My pregnancy with Wonderbaby, Wonderbaby’s birth, Wonderbaby’s life thus far, the second [...]

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Seconds

April 21, 2008

In four weeks, give or take some days, I will give birth. To a baby. Another one. At this point in my first pregnancy, I was totally prepared for the arrival of the baby and for any and all potential natural disasters and had already moved on to alphabetizing the boxes of teas in the [...]

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From The Bottom Of My Squished-Up, Fetus-Kicked Heart

April 17, 2008

Apparently, it was Blog Reader Appreciation Day yesterday. As might well have been expected, I missed it. I’ve been a terrible blog citizen these past months. I still visit and read blogs – old ones, new ones (all the new ones that spring up like so many lovely flowers in my comments inbox, actually. Am [...]

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The Truth, In Twelve Words Or Less

March 30, 2008

The truth about motherhood: The sum of all universes, shat upon, but ever-wiped and diapered.(Spare and obscure, I admit – and meaningful, perhaps, only to me – but I was simply incapable of even beginning to ponder the question, what is the truth about motherhood according to me?, without either writing a six-volume epic, or [...]

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Lady Of The Rings

March 28, 2008

When I was pregnant with Wonderbaby, I lost my wedding ring. It was late in the pregnancy, and my fingers were swollen, so I removed it and (I thought) tucked it safely away, with every intention of putting it on a gold chain or something so that I could keep wearing it. I never saw [...]

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You Are The Cheese

March 11, 2007

We’re, what, only two and a half weeks into Lent? And WonderBaby has already broken her vow to abstain from imitating the Pope. In the hungover fog that was yesterday, I completely forgot to acknowledge the wonderfulness that is this whole Thinking Blogger Award thingie. I mentioned it the other week, when I thanked OTJ, [...]

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